Innerworld
As we move into the last phases of the upgrade for the Human Soul we enter the ‘Womb-hole” as I call it. We are not skipping or running now, We Fly! Not the typical wormhole but the bright and beautiful birth canal for the New Humanity, the Luminous Being. A flying Species~ A entirely new engineering from which we have no conscious understanding.
WE, The Light Body Self that is communicating through our Inner God Connection when we enter the higher frequencies. So many messages we have received, so much time we have been given. So many ego trips and journeys we have been on since the beginning.
Now is the time of Soul’s Reckoning ready or not. As I enter into this magic Womb hole I recognize I am flying through another dimensional space- time warp- I “know” this calling, this soaring. This beckoning. This reaching out from MY…
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After about a year and a half of being back in Canada from Bali, I can look back on my experience with much appreciation in fact. It is 2012 and my spiritual dial is turned up to the top notch. There is not time left to figure out what I have to do to manifest the vision. All I have dreamed of in the past 40 something years is about to culminate into a New Reality, I believe. There is not much time left now – What is left is faith. Faith is the Divine knowing that it is happening as I have always known and felt. It is all about holding that higher vision and frequency of Love and Light.
My blog is now at Innerworld -http://innerworldawakening.wordpress.com/ My virtual Ashram of Awakening~ Please join with me there as the journey continues on til Dec 21, 2012.
Joy and Light,
Jewel Rhajarani
Uluwatu~Temple on the Cliffs
Well, my Divine Family, Friends and Light Beings- I am Home ward bound. Homeland security has officially checked me back into the USA~
I sit at the San Francisco airport now awaiting my last flights home, north bound.
Wow, oh Wow! What an amazing experience this has all been!
Sita from the dance of the Ramayana I saw my last night in Bali.
I wanted a change and I got it for sure! Divine Mother has shown me so much of myself and all I am about in this existence on planet earth this time around. A big Lesson!
About money, love, renunication. my self esteem and lifelong issues and of course, about God, and my lifelong dream! All rolled into one enormous ball of inner wisdom, discovery and incredible connectedness with all that is. Source. Teacher, inner Guru. Smiling at me right now inside my heart. A cosmic laugh, a little joke they played on me, or I played on myself!
I left 7 weeks ago from the United States of America because I was tired and fed up with the whole system, the corrupt money grubbing life of this western world. Only to find out this doesn’t go away when you leave to go someplace else! Of course not! This is going on EVERYWHERE! It is the way of this planet. What a naive person i was! (ok, I admit, I am)
I thought I would find a spiritual place where all this just melts away, and real loving people and spiritual reality would envelop me and take me into the fold so to speak. Into this place outside time and space to that field that Rumi speaks about in his poem….. A place that is more kind, loving and more real then the way people are and live here in the western world. I came to the raw and real understanding that this just does not exist in 3-d world, as much as I so want it to.
If it does it would really surprise me after what I saw out there in these past 7 weeks, the disappointment I felt. I know I am the creator of my own reality and this was the reality I was to experience. It could have been way different for someone else, I admit that straight out. This was how it was for me.
When I first got to Bali I was hopeful that I would find a ‘place’ like what I see in my vision of heaven on earth. I would find ‘Real’ love oriented people, ‘heaven’ building people, kind, caring interested people. I found people interested in making money from me. They seemed to only be interested in how much I was gonna be able to ‘give’ to them. I realize people need money, ok, OK! God, isn’t that sad, I even have to say this here? I am shamed actually.
me at the UluWadu Temple yesterday
The one woman there that I was interested in meeting because she is building the ‘Heaven on Earth Temple’ the lovely woman that created the ‘God Gene’ mandala, she seemed real enough. However authenticate and divinely inspired she appeared to be, from what I saw and felt she had just created nice commercial enterprise out of the ‘spiritual stuff’ for herself and was living it out in Bali. I didn’t get she was was interested in sharing any of this heaven temple with me, unless I was gonna pay, or that she really cared about why I had come here, or what I was about. I will admit I was saddened about this.
When after I shared with her I was there on a budget and a spiritual quest without alot of money to spend, she no longer connected with me.
I really think she just saw me as someone not spiritually developed enough for her trip since I had not created enough abundance to take her mystery course for $400. In other words I was lower on the spiritual evolution ladder. because I had yet to create abundance for myself, I guess that is the indication of how evolved on is!?
So I felt she was neither interested, or curious about what I was doing there or who I really was. Whatever it was she was too busy for me it seemed. I don’t know all this could very well be because I am a super sensitive Soul to all of this.
When I went places that so called spiritual people hang out, it felt to me like the ego in the guise of this ‘spiritual’ facade going on . I Just didn’t get a friendly vibe from most of the foreigners here in Bali, especially the so called ‘spiritual’ ones. It seemed fake. Even the woman that rented me the first house in Bali. She was super friendly as long as I was gonna rent from her, but once I was not going to be a tenant, the energy toward me totally changed. Of course she might have been angry because I didn’t feel comfortable in her house. She then had no time to get together, getting to know me or sharing Bali with me. She could not make the time to even have lunch for one hour, I thought this a bit strange. I really wanted to make connections with other spiritual seekers in Bali, I really thought I did anyway!!
So I found few foreigners or expats there I felt were authenticately connecting in to Divine Oneness the way in which I had hoped to find. Like a kindred Soul friend! I think alot of this was I was up against this money issue haunting me. I couldn’t do all these cool things due to the cost of everything. What a limitation I was dealing with! I vowed never again will I travel to a foreign land as a renunciate trying to make on on $10 a day or something. How ridiculous I was to think it was all just going to magical work out. Silly me!
I had this vision of people here that were living that dream of heaven on earth here in Bali and living in the truth of their True Self, which was what I had gone there hoping to find and connect into. ( yes, Astrea is doing this here. on her own level…I believe) Like I was gonna find this big, happy Soul family or something! What was I thinking for Goddess sake? Right now I feel like a big fat idiot and a fool but that is all part of my lesson isn’t it?
However, I did find that on some level a beautiful energy of kindness within the network of the local Balinese people. These people are such beautiful Souls. Truly, kind, heatfelt people, and most of them very poor. What does that tell you?
I loved their connection to the Gods, even though most of them just do it all out of tradition not even knowing what it all means, daily going through the motions of the religion of their forebearers. I am not sure if they are having a deep connection to God inside themselves per say, but it is a beautiful tradition regardless.
After all this is a lifestyle religion based on giving offerings to higher Beings, the gods of this land.
Driver and Guide, Made
Which I thought was so beautiful! I love that culture so much and I am so glad I got to spend 7 weeks there experiencing that. Wow! and the Temples everywhere. It is truly an amazing gift to God they are giving.
I found my guide and driver, Made to be one of the most ‘real’ spiritual people I met on the entire trip. A beautiful Soul. I loved our chats about spirituality and the Gods we had as he drove me around.
At the temple Uluwatu the last day I spent there, I sat and meditated for about 20 minutes. I was enthralled with the vision I received and felt downloaded to me.
I was being re-filled. My first temple meditation vision at the Mother Temple showed me simply and precisely that I was there on Bali to empty myself. To release all that I had been holding onto for the duration of this life. All the old beliefs.
This time when I went into this space it was like a refilling was taking place. I had a visitation from Hanuman, the monkey God of this Hinduism. He showed me the love of God had filled my entire heart cavity and stretched out over everything. 
That I needed to empty it all in order to refill and that was why I came here.
I was being filled and remade it seemed. I asked the Divine LightBeings to help me on this journey. I was told US help you? Ha! You are here to Help Us! This is your job, you are helping Us to bring this HOME. SO I asked them, what can I do. I knew then I had a big job left and the trip to Bali was by no means the end!
I still have a road ahead of me. I know now that the time of my renunciation has come to an end. I have a job to do on this earth and I will be guided to it because I still don’t know exactly what it is to be quite yet, but that is ok, I know now I am needed for something and that is enough for me to know right now.
I am open to new adventures, to love, to money, wealth and being a channel for the Higher energies coming in.
I still feel between now and 2012 there is a HUGE shift underway. I also still feel that to have a sacred purpose to life means everything, and is the main focus for everybody if one only tunes into it deep inside. It can be found right here in the physical reality I feel now after what I experienced in Bali.
So the lesson for me is that I will no longer be trying to escape it in the way I was before. the material world that is, I feel this trip has shown me it is time for me to leap headlong into it, if you get what I mean. It is time for me to stop sitting on the sidelines watching the game go down. The money game, the ego game, the material reality game. I cannot just deny it. That is for sure, I have to work it……so now I leap forward into doing something to enjoy this and make the most out of the life the God’s have given me here. Or I have given myself it seems in the bigger cosmic scheme of this thing!! Blessings Be! This might or might now be the last post of this series, I cannot say for sure what is next. But thanks for anyone that went along this journey with me for the past 7 weeks and witnessed my struggle and all the beauty I discovered.
I so appreciate all of you! Thank you from the bottom of this Heart! In Love Oneness!
Jewel Rhajarani
Welcome to San Fran! Boy was that a welcoming sign~ Old home town
“Every human being at some time had tragedy enter his life ; it might be the destruction of a city, the death of a loved one, an unproved accusation, a sickness that left one lame forever. At that moment, God challenged one to confront Him and to answer his question” Why dost thou cling fast to an existence so short and so filled with suffering? What is the meaning of thy struggle?”
The man who did not know how to answer this question would resign himself, while another, one who sought a meaning to existence, feeling that God unjust, would challenge his own destiny, it was at that moment that fire of a different type descended from the heavens-not the fire that kills but the kind that tears down ancient walls and imparts to each human being his true possibilities. Cowards never allow their hearts to blaze with this fire; all they desire is for the changed situation to return quickly to what it was before, so they can go on living theirs lives and thinking in their customary way. The brave, however, set afire that which was old, and even at the cost of great internal suffering, abandon everything, including God, and continue onward. ” The brave are always stubborn”. 
From Heaven, God smiles contentedly, for it was this He desired, that each person take into his hands the responsibility for his own life. F or the final analysis He had given His children the greatest gifts; the capacity to choose and determine their own acts. Only those men and women with the sacred flame in their hearts had the courage to confront him. And they alone knew that suffering and tragedy was not punishment but challenge. ”
From the Fifth Mountain by Paulo Coelho
I made this choice to let go and go forth turning everything over to Source as I knew it to be. Everything is choice. Within your heart you are at this moment choosing to read this and it’s all part of the ultimate plan and we need to be awake whilst making our choices. Be conscious of the ultimate outcome, due to what we do. Have the vision to see what you are dreaming before you do it.
All of us have a varied perception of life but no matter how different this may be, we are all in agreement that things are changing constantly to be different from what we know. Part of our collective direction is the “hoping” of getting back what we have lost and this is keeping us in the past. Because we may not be sure of the future, we would rather have the comfort of knowing “something”, and what we know is the past. Unfortunately the collective past has been floored with bad more than good. So my heart says, why stay in the past. Now I realize I must believe in my future by manifesting my dream. I must have faith and let go, allowing Great Spirit’s divine flow to process the waves of inevitability.
We are spirit and we are infinitely connected to the web that Great Spirit weaves. What Great Spirit is dreaming is the ultimate purpose.
I have been confronting my own internal challenges while in Bali. Choosing this path of aloneness, awakening rather then the material focus. What I have found is Duality in everything is constant. This seems to be the one consistent aspect I am noticing.
Accepting what it is, what it means to ‘Let Go’ and ‘Let God’ …in all the aspects of my own inner Duality, while seeing it reflected back to me in the outer reality I have been facing while here.
Bali is Duality at it most obvious. So much Beauty mixed with a whole lot of darkness. Since we live in a world where both sides of the dichotomy are playing out the Divine Lila or cosmic play of being fully in the human condition. Bali is the Soul of Mother Gaia, The Divine Feminine. There is no light without dark in the realm of 3-d duality human condition we are in. The lesson i see once again. over and over again in my face, up close and personal.
Here as is in everything human, especially here in this rich fertile place, in this Land of the Gods it is both sides of the light and the dark. Bali is so that….. it is a little bit of Heaven and a little bit of Hell all rolled into one. All the 
beauty, the green, the flowers, the lushness, the spirituality, the temples of Paradise on Earth and then there is the other side…..the garbage everywhere, the deep dark dirt, the rank smells, the money greed distortion and tourism, poverty, the hellish side certainly is everywhere. The Divine Deities, the Demons. Is it all just a metaphor for life as it is right now?
-It certainly has been a fascinating lesson for me if nothing else. Hard but truth in it’s rawest. They say we create our own reality with our thoughts, both conscious and unconscious and I know it’s true. I have created this view, this experience in Bali. for myself. I have seen both sides the beauty and the grime, and I have seen this in everything including myself on this trip here. So what does it mean to have this in my face like this ? This integration of the black and the white checkered cloth? The good, the bad, the light and the dark. All a metaphor for the inner fires of transformation of our Soul in Duality.
All that has happened to me while I have been here, all the interesting issues i have come up against.
However I am aware Our world is out of balance, with masculine qualities and virtues still dominant – often even in women. Part of the larger Shift we’re all here to create is restoring balance. This is happening within the whole of humanity’s inner collective. No one is exempt from what Higher Self is going through. The reckoning of Duality.
That’s why it’s so important for us to connect with the deep Feminine, within us, the qualities of being that can lead to a more reverential, connected, and honoring way of life. To bring Balance.
This was why I came here to this lush place was to connect to Mother Gaia and feel this and empty myself of all i no longer need, all the extra baggage of my 56 years of life.
Today i am packing, sorting out what I have to leave behind me here. I had an overweight suitcase on the way here, now I have to empty the best I can. That is a test in itself. What to let go of and leave here, what is so important that I have to bring along. This is like a releasing of all those parts of myself I came here with, that I no longer need to carry forward with.
What I really have gotten to experience here is this letting go process is all part of the Divine Mother coming in. This is the reality I created. I see it as my challenge to continue on keeping on after this year of letting go of it all, so I could fully embrace it as Me, not seeking outside of myself anymore. What is next?
So what I have come to realize and understand about all this is that I can stay in the Divine Mother Temple in my heart no matter where I go to next – this Temple is always here, Imagine being able to step into a sacred place at any time you wish, a sacred place within you where you can find solace and nurturing–no matter where you are.
This is what you can expect when you tap into the energy and gifts of The Divine Mother, The Divine Feminine within. She is always with me no matter where I am. I did know this before I left my home in Eugene a year ago, but I suppose I need this sojourn into the unknown to finally understand that deeply and fully.
The Diving Mother is one of the oldest and most powerful archetypes in the world. So I have to really honor that She is who I am working with here inside of myself.
She holds that unconditional love I truly was seeking, She offers a deep embrace, and the willingness to sit with the unknown. She insists on our innate connection to nature, the celebration of the feminine gift to give birth and the sacred holding of sexuality. She holds the space for this internal wisdom and the cycles of life. She never says no because there is not enough time, food, energy or love. In the world of the Great Mother, there is no scarcity–there is always enough, more than enough. She is Divine Love, and what I was always seeking.
But she also burns with that Sacred Fire in her form of Kali and Sehkmet when that is what needs to happen, and that is happening as well. She burns off the dross that is no longer for our highest purpose, and I came here to burn this off in the heat of Mother Bali. Purifying -Duality of Divine Mother in her Light and Dark side. Encompassing all of it. This has been my experience these past 7 weeks. An encounter with Great Mother at her rawest, hottest and wettest form.
So, yes this has been my confrontation with Goddess, but in a softer way really, not the harsh reality that Paulo Coelho writes about in his story ‘the Fifth Mountain’, from the God of olden day, an intense, hard God, Jehovah. He writes in the book somewhere that the Gods change with the changing Humanity. They have grown and changed as well. At one time the gods were in their adolescence and now they are grown into adulthood, leaving behind the war games of those biblical times. Although it is the same lesson since time immemorial that humanity must open to and become. honed, emptied and reconciled with that fire of the inner Light.
SO I have 2 more days to finish this phase of my story. To continue with this form of the duality encounter for a little while longer while I am here, before I go back to the western dream, of money, finances, creating and dreaming the new dream. 😉
Of course where ever I go I will continue on until the Divine Mother is done with me, this Eternal Sacred Flame firing my Soul and rendering me clean…..xox
Yellow Flower Cafe
This is my last Sunday in Bali ……..Sad but True! So I went for a morning walk to breakfast at a little organic place called the Yellow Flower. These pics today are from my morning walk to the cute cozy spot.
Well, The time is coming to a completion for me of something…… this trip if nothing else, but my inner calling is still not finished. The merging with my Higher Self goes on and on…..maybe forever 😉
I came here almost 7 weeks ago because I had this intense inner pull to merge with God. Have you ever had that? Anyway, it was so strong what I had been feeling this past few years I needed to take some time off of everything I had been doing and go be in a spiritual place, on my own to get closer to my Divine Self. The ashram life I found out, was not gonna do it for me, at least not where I went at first to Ananda, that did not fulfill the longing I had to go to a spiritual environment. Maybe still to commercial or something? I felt if i could just be alone someone fabulous, like Heaven on Earth and focused on meditating, doing yoga and eating healthy, tropical fruits, gave myself to the path of the spiritual life all this would fall into place.
I could fully awaken and merge with the Beloved. It made sense I could do it, I felt it was calling me to it,
I couldn’t have been more wrong about all of that. It didn’t turn out how I imagined it would for one thing.
I would do it here however best I could, What I have come to realize is that all that really didn’t matter after all. All my thoughts about what i would or wouldn’t do to be spiritual and merge. To awaken to my True Self. I found I cannot just will it to happen, It is a natural progression, and I can remain true to the calling and good in my heart and thinking .
The Divine calls US when She does in the strangest of ways and circumstances, like in the biblical story of Elijah. He followed his calling and inner messages, but where did he get with it all? To the desert.
Why oh why I came to Bali to figure this all out, is completely beyond my current understanding at this moment anyway, to say the least. I followed a calling inside myself. Just like Elijah spoke to Angels, I got messages too, from GODDESS if you will.
Yes, I enjoyed Bali, and I am glad I came. Did Divine Mother send me here for a reason? Well that I do not know……. I may never have another chance to just up and leave for 7 weeks to a tropical place, so regardless of the spiritual reason, I am glad I took the chance. Even though I came up against ALL my issues more then anything else. Oh yes, I connected with God, Divine Mother in all her Glory and Beauty here that’s for sure ( I always do seem to do that OK) and mostly I had alot of realizations about life, my life and how I am. Mostly about my own limitations. (not that I didn’t know all of these already) This place just really brought them out to be examined thoroughly. Not the funnest thing to do for a vacation, but if you are a bonifide spiritual seeker this is one way to spend 40 days, alone praying and meditating. Not exactly the desert! But alot of similarities to that for me. Except lots of water!! Thank you Goddess for water! Even good clean drinking water delivered.
I look back at what happened here, what I did and didn’t do it makes little sense at the moment and maybe later I can say OH Wow that’s it! That was why I did this or that is why I gave away everything I owned to go there!
For now not much makes sense to me. I am just ready to move on now. Finish this phase of it.
Spiritually, I am still having experiences I cannot explain to anyone. I close my eyes and I feel I am in a different world. Still inbetween 2 realities.
So I suppose I will be until the final curtain call.
Did I really expect to find what I was looking for in Bali?
I guess I was hoping about it……Looking to manifest some dream Temple or something,
Now I know I will stop looking for it outside of my own heart, that is the lesson.
I will eat what I want do yoga or not…… pray, chant and meditate, yes when i feel it is calling me …but not because i feel if I don’t I will be off my spiritual path. Because I am the Spiritual Path….I AM the Spiritual Being I am seeking. I AM the meditation the prayer, the Temple. I AM the only one that cares or doesn’t care what t I do or do not do to invoke the Divine Presence. Does this make sense? Do most my friends think I am a idiot for even trying to prove my Soul in this manner for this past year?
Anyway, with that said and done, I have had an experience of myself. What else can I say about it?
I walked I prayed, I sang, I cried, I meditated., I danced, I yoga-ized …I went to Temples, I shopped, spent too much money, I ate. I read several books, and yes I blogged! I played the harmonium, and i took alot of cold showers and memorized the yoga postures all over again by their Sanskrit names ( which I can easily forget again in a few weeks if I stop doing them everyday) Is that life in a nutshell or what?
I did not meet alot of spiritual friends like I thought I might, nor did I focus on learning the language, Bahasa Indonesian. I wasn’t interested in putting all that into my head, just to forget it again when I left. Will I ever come to Indonesia again? I doubt it 😉
I did the batik. I had a purification, a Balinese healing, and a reflexology treatment. I got 3 massages less then $10 each, and I made a whole bunch of papaya smoothies, and I ate meals of Nasi Campur vegetarian style! Oh, and loved the Crispy fried Tempeh! My favorite so far~
I brought a Vita Mix I could not use so I had to buy a $30 blender, such a waste of suitcase space! I also brought a bunch of other things not needed in this climate or situation. A part of me thought I was going to stay over the winter. But, when I found out that getting an extended visa is more complicated then someone told me before coming, I would have to leave to Singapore every 60 days and pay about an average of $50 a month for visa privileges on top of the trip and renewal costs.
Jalan jalan - means walking walking
Now I am just happy to be able to get out of here earlier then my ticket allowed. I had to cancel my old ticket and pay for a change. Luckily for me it was not going to cost $1800 which is what Travelocity told me when I called them on Skype to change it, which totally shocked me! When I bought the ticket they told me it might be up to $200 for a change. I ended up paying $125 extra for a trip change.
Staying in Bali for the winter sounded so great to me when i was making the plans. All those winters in Eugene in the rainy, wet cold climate. Right now, believe it or not I am sooo looking forward to a cold rainy day! ( i never thought I would feel this way, but here I am saying it) I am not all that keen on the hot, clammy weather here, where you can barely wear clothes. I like clothes. I like fall clothes, I like winter clothes. I like down comforters and warm winter fires. Don’t I sound like a little kid that realized that she was fine where she was all the time? Damn!
But, I needed that change, I needed the wake up call. I needed to travel and be my version of a World Traveler for once. Granted I had been to Mexico and Hawaii 3 times in the past 11 years, which made me think I wanted a Tropical life. But to travel half way around the world to discover this lesson. Well that is really something! Isn’t it? 😉
I don’t love being alone. Although I enjoy it for a while. I prefer having a partner to share my life with.
I also found out I much prefer eating with someone else. All alone for every meal is rather uncanny, lonely and boring.
nice walk and lovely views
Being a woman alone in a foreign country is to me not exactly my favorite way to travel. So I learned alot of things about myself on this trip.
So if I did this to get closer to God, to have a spiritual vacation. Do you think I did?
I did find out about myself and that is spiritual in itself. Since my idea of a spiritual trip is to merge completely with my Higher Self and experience complete and total awakening. Then no I did not yet experience that. But I did experience other reality checks!
Maybe not as profound and as wonderful as Enlightenment, Not yet! But that doesn’t mean I am gonna completely give up on it. However, what I do think I learned is to just take it easy, be myself 
and completely enjoy the ride to get there!
So high Ho Silver! Yippee~ Life is good and I am one step closer to realizing the final Dream and yes, that elusive Awakening everyone talks about, but never actually experiences. Honestly I don’t know a single soul that has actually experienced the kind of awakening I am talking about, glimpse yes…..I have glimpse of awakened state in and out frequently, but in complete totality yet , I don’t know anyone that is there fully everyday.
Do you?
xox Love and Light~
Ms Jewel Rhajarani ~over and out
- At Yellow Flower cafe-lovely little organic place
paradise is within
Ah! It has been a very interesting experience here in the Island of the Gods. I am finishing my inner work here and am ready to leave. After being in Bali for 6 weeks I have to admit I am over this ongoing search in my Soul for trying to find paradise on Earth. I guess I have come to understand that heaven on Earth is in my Heart. As much as I have looked and longed for it to manifest, I realize now that it is all inside. Within Me, You and I. It is a state of mind, we create where ever we are.
So I am ready to call this a wash, a cleanse…..Mother’s downpour of watery love. It is rainy and wet out right now and it all seems appropriate I should feel this watery feeling coming on. Today I had to call the plumber to come and fix a dripping leak in the bathroom here…..water water everywhere……and it will be rainy when i return to the Northwest. 
I am already working on a new blog for when I return. On to the next subject matter after I am done with Bali. FOOD! Food, healthy, gourmet, glorious food! One of my favorite subjects 2nd only to GOD!
I have gotten to this feeling of being total done here and ready to go forth. I am ready to move on, but still have 5 more days left. So I am just enjoying these last few lazy days…. It’ll go fast. I am going to have to find a few more interesting things to do that don’t cost much.
My meal at 'Clear' Green papaya salad, "rawviolis and crispy tempeh
The weather has gotten cooler (a tiny bit!) and cloudy, now raining and today I stayed inside all day. Yesterday on my birthday however, I did a long walk, one last time through the main village of Ubud and took over 200 pictures. So this post today is going to be about those photos.
I had a nice dinner at an organic raw style restaurant I had heard about called ‘Clear’ had thought it would be a nice way to spend my birthday, and the last Friday night in town.
'Clear Restaurant in Bali
I loved just walking and getting some really cool pictures of things I never thought to photograph before. There are even things I am wishing I had taken pictures of that I didn’t for one reason or other. Mostly out of politeness I didn’t take a snapshot.
Today I am resting. Thinking. Too much thinking i think! 😉
I am just having a down day with my computer and the new blog site.
Table at Clear where I enjoyed my Birthday dinner
I needed to create a way to start making a living when I return to the West. One thing I have been creating for about these past 6 months is a personal chef service and cooking classes. When I return I am going to photo all the meals I create and write out all the recipes and have a blog about it. I have been thinking about this for a few months now……This has been one of my real passions and since I am a total foodie it makes sense for me to create a website and blog out of it. The new blog is already created here: Have a peek if you like, but the actual blogging doesn’t start til I get back to a real kitchen with my chef’s knifes and vitamix!
http://organic-gourmet-foodie.com
and the other one I had been working on for a while before even coming here to Bali is:
http://www.organicgourmet.spruz.com
So this is my new project once I get back and get settled in. As well as creating something with the art business.
In the meantime I have enjoyed all of this time to be alone and meditate, dance, eat, do yoga, walk…. take pictures, and most importantly connect with the Divine Gods of this Land.
Now it is time to get back down to business, and doing something to earn a living! And since the powers that be are not yet ready it seems to transform this place, I still have to figure out a way to pay for myself in 3-d.
So I would say I am now a bit preoccupied with thinking about how I will proceed.
On my walk through the market
In the meantime I still go through this internal transformation, feeling it very physically now. It continues to work on me day and night until the final times of this old 3-d – I am here and then onward to where I go from here only Heaven knows how and when.
Only time will tell, but I do know I got over my dream in living in a tropical country while being here in Bali. I have enjoyed this, but I am a west coast person born and bred California Girl! I am fine to live in the moderate climate of the Pacific northwest to give up the hot, clammy nights and days of the Isle of the Gods as much as I have enjoyed the time I had to spend here. I guess I would have to say the biggest lesson I have learned is that one does not need to go to the land of Paradise and temples in order to commune with God. ( I knew this already but I had to see for myself) The Temple is within. I feel it is no longer needed for humanity to have an ashram, a temple, or to need a priest, a guru or a holy man to take you to the truth of what is inside. This is my experience over this past year anyway, Seeking the Ashram, the Temple the holy land. To find out I AM THAT TEMPLE I seek, it is inside of me, you and all of us. WE are it! IT is the Re-Membering of that that is so hard to recognize for us all.
The offering on my table at Warung Simple
Of course unless one feels that is what will help them to find it, having a Guru or a Teacher is sometimes what one needs, if you think it so.
I feel those times are over when we need something outside our self to find the Truth we seek.
Truly we don’t need all that, the time of churches, priests and temples is over for humankind. We have the Temple, the Guru right inside. GOD is everywhere right inside the Heart. So is my life long dream of living in Hawaii, Costa Rica, Bali this is all over now, finally, like an old love affair I hung on to way too long, one I had to prove to myself was no longer needed for my highest growth.
I realize this Paradise of Heaven on Earth Dream is inside of ME! Where it has been all along! Like in the book ‘ The alchemist’ I read on the plane over here…… I had to go on this journey along way from home to find HOME is where the heart is………So, I can now let go of the seeking out there for answers and holy places to be. Been there and done it, all that seeking, the longing, the dreaming!
WE are the ONE and it is all of US together that is going to birth the new reality. As soon as we can stop focusing on the old system and imagine our highest vision. WE can bring in the new way of the heart chakra, and the sooner WE can all align with it inside, we will bring this to fruition. All I do for sure know is I am a vessel for the download and it does not matter where on Earth I place this physical body as long as it is somewhere where I can be comfortable and secure.
And so it is….amen
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Black and White
I am having my own sweet Libra Birthday celebration Meditation/yoga session at the Yoga Studio/Temple I rented in Bali. I have one week more here before flying Homeward bound!
Wow, I feel this has been a lifetime already of lessons, insights and divine reckoning.
It has taken me deep into the heart of the inner workings of balance of the Material and Heavenly realms of the Soul. I AM.
I cannot say enough for this Balancing act. This is the lesson of Bali for me.
50% heaven 50% hell or if you like better 50% Material 50% Spiritual
This is where I have come to understand this religion here. This physical reality as well. It is really all about where I focus.
One goes outside here and can see either hell or heaven. It is both here very obviously. It is such a trip. This is Libra. This is the whole name of the game of being in the human condition actually. Doesn’t it really seem so?
I am finishing my sojourn with the Divine powers that be in Bali. Within Me I have become Myself. This is what I have found here. Just Me. Always here, me. Myself and I. The True Self within ME.
The merging of the old little self that is also me and the integration of these old patterns, blocks and limitations was the reason I had to see this about myself. The emptying out of this here. I cannot get rid of that part of me, It is part of the physical world I live in. It is everywhere I am, this is also part of me.
Black and white to remind us-Balance in eveything
Also to accept that I am part of a Material reality and to balance my Spiritual Self with the Material reality, The fact I am an American woman and part of the American dream of Prosperity and Wealth and having what we need. Also part of something else that exists on this earth as well- I have to absorb it, being poor or living in these conditions of poverty, lack and limitation. IT is all a part of Me, this is for sure what I found out.
It is lucky I did not chose India for this realization, which was at first here I was going to go. Bali was enough of a reality check for this Goddess Comfort Queen! Oh my goodness-Venus fluff Libra Soul of a 56 year old princess I AM! To own also the other side of what all this is. the Opposite of all of that….
For sure I think this trip was just what I needed to see how ‘western’ I really am
inside- I love that about myself come to realize! I also send love to the part that is eastern and completely the dichotomy of westernized! That does exist too I can testify!
Yin and Yang-Libra
I AM what I AM and that is what I came to understand. All of it……Also what I have come to the understanding of is something my Mom used to say and I quote. “If you can’t beat em, join em!” I realize that there really is no running away from the
world as much as I would have liked to. I am here to stay~ At least til the
Grand Finale anyway! I might as well own every part of it and welcome it!
I came( to planet earth) for the long haul I guess. No checking out early. Or becoming a Monk! Have to be part of the whole thing.
So I now know I have to create money, abundance and a source of income that
allows me the life I Love. It is that simple. I cannot be a renunciate- God
knows that about me and it is OK.
That time in my life is done. Over, finished! Interesting but it took a year
of doing this to understand that I am just a normal human! ( well, kinda
normalish)
Dark, light and everything inbetween! Shadow and Angel all in One.
I cannot escape it. I chose it, this life on planet earth in a woman’s body
and now I will live it out until I exit this reality. Yes, I would have liked
to have been a holy man. But I am not. So that is that…
Instead I choose to be a Whole Woman!
I am a Divine Being of Light, I AM the Princess of my Own Life, a beautiful Comfort Queen -Gourmet Organic Foodie! This is all for sure a part of Me, and I have needs and desires in a material reality and I have to fulfill. I do not enjoy poverty one little
bit. So I learned this much about myself as if I didn’t already know that……. nothing wrong with it at all to get a reminder about how I prefer to be. At least I tried to let go my material needs and focus on higher matters and I did it. giving it my best shot at the idea of letting go of the material
reality.
Shiva-Shakti-Balance the Dark and the Light
Now I realize that this is it……..I am here in this until the fat lady sings
as they say!
So today marks the day I left Eugene one year ago on my spiritual quest. To
find God, to give my life to God I guess, I did. It is done. My life is God
and I am still a material girl in a material world, ( for now anyway it seems 😉
Can’t live with it and can’t live without ir is what I learned in Bali. I cannot
go without money in this world.
I like my comforts too much. Why give that up? I can still honor the Divine while sipping Champagne or staying at a 5 star hotel. (Although i would prefer an eco-lodge, probably) Forget traveling on the cheap and being in a situation of poverty, cheap hostels, clammy sheets, or funky living conditions, yuck, not for me. No way Jose! That was the life of a day gone by. No more is that a way to live in this time. Impossible in the world the way it is now, and I choose not to be in that condition as long as I am in a human body.
So that is the lesson after all. I am a Goddess.
I never wish to travel cheaply again. I am abundance in motion in the world of
materialism- That is my affirmation!
Bummer to traveling on the cheap- It is not a lifestyle I wish to adopt ever, 
ever.
But at least I checked it out. So that I could understand it. Have a glimpse
into it. TO see with my own eyes what that is truly about. NO it is not ok for
anybody. Especially not me.
So today I celebrate an ending and a new beginning. divine Mother Temple right inside of me. To Be Abundance and to Glorify Goddess right here in this Human Body! Re-birthday! Happy Birthday ME!!! Love-Love-Love I AM ONE. ♥♥♥
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It is down now to my last week in Bali. Wow, 7 weeks on this Isle of Gods in total…….an amazing learning experience to say the very least. I am ready to go now however, it is now down to the final 7 days. & seven more posts,
I had to cancel the purification with the Priest for my Birthday that Made had set up for me, and the last Temple trip to the west of Bali, which I would have loved to experience, but alas due to coming down to the end of my finances I had to cancel these last two events.
Bummer but oh well, I knew it could happen……everything comes to an end sometime, someplace. Everything here is one costly event. Is this the way it is everywhere in the world these days for heaven’s sake? My oh my how it is. I realized walking down the street today, people want to befriend me because they think I will spent money at their shop or place. When they know I have nothing, do they even want to talk to me? Interesting thing this money thing, It has come down to this as being the biggest lesson I face here.
Yes, I have really overspent on this trip, hard not to, everything costs…..it is the way of the world.
I spent more then I should have or would have just being home of course. It is just the way it was and is. I cannot understand it, the way of this world, actually. Since this is not my usual focus, this is not my way, my world. I used to just have a job, and get by, buy the things I need, pay the bills. That’s it. Just live my life. Now I realize it is such a jungle out here about survival and money getting skills. Wow, eye opener! I have come to the end of my renunciate period during this. It is time for me to go back to making a good living to support the life I live.
So the final purification of this Soul is now just down to between me and God. It would end up costing me about $50 usd to go to the Priest purification for my birthday which i just cannot afford it. Now I just need to cleanse and purify my own lack and limitation beliefs, thoughts and collective mass consciousness hooks about prosperity and abundance. Any limitation for sure that is still holding me back on any level I give to the Ethereal Priests.
So right here I am just asking the Divine ONES~ GOD/GODDESS – MY Divine Mother to purify me and finish this before I leave Bali. I am done with the old patterns, tapes, beliefs. One more flush, a final cleanse.
And believe me this has nothing to do with another fruit or green drink cleanse ! This is something very deep, this is powerful medicine, this is old stuff about limitation on all levels …….. about my ancient Soul. The eternal ME.
“Make me a Sanctuary of Truth, LOVE and Abundance” , This is my plea to the Powers that Be!
Whatever this final week is for me here, it will have to be done for free. I have just enough money left now for food for a week and my airport baggage fee and the trip home. That’s about it. unless I manifest a channel of material influx.
In the meantime Divinity is still working on me. I am finishing, being cleared and final purification is truly happening within I really feel that. It is actual dizzying to experience!
I honesty don’t feel I need a priest, or another temple to go to, or to spend any more money to do this last week in Bali and be freed.
Goddess has her in-material methods which She is using with me this very moment I feel, since I have a sixth sense about these things. Something is really working on me inside I feel.
Thank you Lakshmi for those small favors of non-material = material reality. The balance point I have come to respect here in this Land of black and white checkered cloth.
Because I have come to respect also that I am being formed and molded and being prepared as a vessel for the new reality, I am a download receptacle is all I know at this time, what that means is yet to be seen!.
I am getting the eternal purification ceremony right here in this Heart. It is all part of what this is about whether I desire it or not. It is Real as it gets for me…this miracle of Life that is reforming ITSELF inside the Heart of Humanity.
I pray inside ! Lord prepare ME- Make it clear- I just want to thank you for giving me this life.
May we all be healed, may we be a source of Healing in the World. May we all have enough love, happiness and money. May we all have all our needs fulfilled. May all Beings on Bali and everywhere be prospering, all my family, friends relations be fulfilled.
As I have said earlier, I wish I could just give away money to everyone who is needy. It is sad to see some with and so much wealth and so many without.
Bali is a land full of mystery and enchantment but sad to say, also sustains a social-economic system of poverty. There is a great gulf between the haves and the have-nots. Accordingly when you travel away from the tourist areas and the major towns, you will surely discover a land full of very God/Spirit oriented people, which in their own way are living out their cultural heritage without the influence of Tourism and doing just fine without it.
But Tourism is the down fall of Bali and all the neediness of the Balinese people, which is truly sad to see. I am sure before all this tourism this local, indigenous culture needed nothing from outside their own little world of Bali.
Now look what has happened-
I wish I had more to offer, to give to the needy. Really I do~But it should not have to be this way. I guess I am so naive to all this going on, being so sheltered in my own way, an American. I wish I could do something to be part of the solution instead of part of the problem! Which is tourism here, and now they cannot live without it to sustain themselves anymore on their own culture.
In the meantime, I have been emptied out of all of this. Letting go of all this suffering, all I have taken on inside myself of the Collective everywhere.
Prepared, a empty Vessel now. For the Higher Gods. I have devoted myself to. I came here for that, to finally let myself go to the spiritual world fully.
I am given within and without. Nothing left. Except the Core, the Heart of who and what I really AM.
The falling away old world…….I am over it all. Done with that. Finished, capoot, Nada-Nothing……Complete. The life of falsehood. I cannot bear to be part of what is no longer working in me. Lack, limitation, poverty, sadness, depression. All of this dissolve it away. Give me back what is true about me. Wealth, love, happiness, well being, abundance, generosity, Peace and Sharing…..this is who I Am.
Now I am going back prepared for what? To be real? Whole, complete? The next step the re-birth the final awakening.
Bali has been a place of cleansing, washing, emptying, purification of the Soul.
Now I await. That is it. That is what They, the Higher Light Beings show me. Wait and prepared to be filled. Filled with Light, with Love. Heart bursting to overflowing. I bow to God/Goddess all there is- Widi Wasa in all Her/His Form~
Krishna-Kali Divine Beings.
To refill this Soul with totality. I still have a few more things to finalize, let go of, to give away, release and then that’s it. Then I am on my way. Soaring! Where? Well that is to be seen 😉 I, in all honestly cannot say exactly what I will do next. I do know I am going Home. That is all I am being told.
Home to the Heart. To the Beloved.
HOME- I AM going HOME
I am Dancing! I I am LOVE~ I am Soul- I AM WHOLE
Much is coming up for me about the Plumed Serpent and i feel this is part of my ancient roots. Family lineage sort of thing. In my bloodline.
“This Dragon-Bird Being was a uniting symbol achieving union of opposites: heaven and earth, morning and evening star, matter and spirit….the transcendental meaning of this great myth is clear. It is an expression of the universal doctrine of sin and redemption, of death and resurrection, the transfiguration of man into god….this myth, in the broadest possible terms, enunciates the principle of all Creation: the incarnation of divine light, purity, and spirituality into gross matter; and then the agonizing redemption of matter by spirituality—the immortal theme of all world religions.”
PS; Note from the Universe today:
Most people, Jewel, think that paradise is a state of having all you want, when actually, it’s a state of not having all you want, but knowing that it’s near, that you can have it, and that you will.
Kind of like Bali… and everywhere else on your floaty, little planet.
TBT,
The Universe
TBT, Jewel, means Thoughts Become Things… or Tiger Bear Twizzlers to some in Bali.
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ocean at Temple Padang Bai
The Temple of Padang Bai
I believe that the reason I came to Bali has something to do with the Ancient Temples and the energy of this land. There is something deeply profound of what the original Gods gave to mankind and what they wanted us to hold onto throughout the ages and what we are destined to go through on Planet Earth once again. This is the time of a deep change and rekoning. Last night at 4:44am I began a morning meditation. Once more to come into an alignment with the powers that are contacting me.
I like to say politely ‘Divine Mother’ or even Vishnu/Garuda the incoming Avatar. Because these are names and images that have been around for ages. Of course the Garuda is a Buddhist/Indonesian/Hindu type image, but for me I know what this Being means. Many years ago in my visions and dreams I saw an immense Bird Being, sometimes with two heads.
I often was taken aback by the power of this image and wondered why it was showing ‘Itself’ to me. Who and why? I did research about it and who it could be, a Godlike being with a bird/Human and also Dragon like body. This was several years ago He first appeared to me.
Vishnu/Garuda
At that point I found out about Garuda and Quetzalcoatl. Two bird like God figures in Human history. Was he returning and giving warning? What had it to do with this Grand Temple I would also see in these visions? Often I would see the temple as this immense Living Entity and also this Bird-like Garuda/Quetzlcoatl as the alive Temple and vessel WE are all within, if this makes any sense at all to anyone possibly reading this. It has been suggested several times that the energies of Christ and Quetzalcoatl are the same or at least closely associated. Also Krishna/Vishnu is also associated with Christ energy for sure. Before coming to Bali I was told this is the land of the Heart of the Christ Consciousness.
Well, for me here today, with this immense Vishnu/Garuda starring at me at this Hotel I am staying at in Padang Bai, I had to open up the energy in my blog for speaking of it. These past few days I have felf the immense incoming energy, but have kept the blogging just a superficial diary. Why? Why have I not spoke of truth about what I am seeing in the higher Realms? Am I afraid of being shunned or people thinking I am nuts for focusing on it all the time? Is it that I have an obsession with God? Like right now I am writing about this rather then swimming at the beach. What is that about? Total craziness!?
Last night when I went to dinner, I met with the same man I had seen at the restaurant earlier in the day. One of the only people around that speaks english! Most tourists I have seen here are French is seems. Anyway, Keith from New Zealand. His daughter and grandchildren live in Bali. Speaking to him of my visions once again reminded my why I don’t usually talk about it and why I have become like an undercover agent for the Divine, like a sleuth, quietly going about my innerwork affairs….
Temple Priest on the stairs
This is because it makes people think I am from some other planet or that I am crazy or on hallucinogenics. Either that or they get freaked out about what I am saying. Very few people in this world can really digest this kind of information. So every once in a while I just allow myself to say what is going on in this mind of mine. 😉 But mostly So I just keep it all inside myself. I quietly keep the connection going with what is going on and for all these years, awaiting the return of these Higher ET/Divine ONES to return to us and show us the reason for the Temples/Pyramids and the legacy they left to remind us of Them.
Their legacy is our common wealth, says Freddy Silva who is one of the world’s leading experts on sacred sites, and a leading researcher into the interaction between temple and consciousness. He writes:
Following a global catastrophe in 9703 B.C., groups of Sages embarked on a mission to rebuild a worldwide network of temples that would maintain indefinitely a society in balance with itself and with the cosmos.
These places of power were constructed at magnetically sensitive locations and according to prescribed laws that are capable of altering states of consciousness. But not only did temples become repositories of an incredible ancient science, they would also serve as an insurance policy in times when people lost sight of the fact that they too are gods.
Can temples really transform ordinary humans into extraordinary beings?
Bestselling author Freddy Silva examines the origins of sacred places and what makes them so, from pre-diluvial mansions of the gods to the resurgence of ancient knowledge in the modern era, and asks:
Why did our predecessors source the earth force?
What and where is paradise?
Are sacred mountains geometrically aligned?
Where does deity descend to earth?
Who were the 15-foot tall gods?
How are temples aligned to a world grid?
How do fables encode numerical codes?
Why do periods of temple-building pre-empt climate changes?
What secret did the Knights Templar bring back from Jerusalem?
What is the angle of manifestation, and what is it doing in a capital city?
The aim of the temple-builders was to preserve and transmit a body of spiritual knowledge capable of transfiguring the soul, for just as they once discovered, this knowledge offers a solution to our loss of confidence in the spirit, and through this self-empowerment we become masters of our selves.
So for me this is what I am doing in Bali. Connecting to the consciousness of the place. This is why all this touristy stuff is all nonsense to me really. If I could have just focused on the temples of this place it would have been interesting. Usually to go in them doesn’t really matter to me. It is just to be present in the entire energy of the land. I am only a vessel to hold the frequency until they return. The return of the Gods is what I am awaiting.
Here in Bali, India, Egypt, Peru, the Yucatan all the ancient lands where these Temples exist, I know it is in the heart of Gaia and it is not needed for me to be in any certain country or temple to ‘Feel’ the energy. I can go back to the USA or Canada and be in the energy of these Temples from anywhere. It is inside of me now, like an implant….It is like have internet access to anywhere. I have been to the Great Pyramid in Egypt, meditated at the Pyramids in the Yucatan and absorbed the energy of the Mother Temple here in Bali. Here I sit by the pool at the hotel on a very small island archipelago in Indonesia and it could be reaching someone in Russia or Brazil. This is the same with this Temple Entity that seemed to call me to Bali. I feel it from anywhere I am, it is. This was about a balancing of the Divine Feminine for me for sure.
People gathering at Temple Goa Lawah
I will admit however that since I have come here the energies are revved up quite a bit indeed! Is it because I am here? Or have the flood gates opened? What is it that made the difference I wonder? When I first came I thought I would fast and pray, get myself in prime, divine shape energetically. Then after a while I was just seeking balance in my life. The fasting and eating only fruit was hard on my inner self while being here it seemed. Was it really necessary?
So i have just been going along from day to day, holding the space, not that interested in the tourist things. Spending money and all of it seems a waste to me, I am over it.
I am a space holder for the ONES, this much I know. I will do this where ever I am. IT has to do with a Divine Mother of all Mothers and Her Temple of Light. It is about this Dragon-Bird Like Being that is a vessel, a vehicle, like Garuda for Vishnu. This is what I do see and know is what they are showing me in the visions I see.
If I could hypothesis about what this is all leading up to I would have to say we are all in this together as ONE consciousness, WE are Transforming this whole Earth into a New Form. This is what this Quetzalcoatl Being is representing here. The merger of Heaven and Earth, God and Man, Male and Female. The Kundalini in the sushumna -Ida and Pingala as ONE Consciousness.
It is my guess that the rapid development of technology and the destruction of the biosphere are material by-products of a psycho-spiritual process taking place on a planetary scale. We have created this crisis to force our own accelerated transformation – on an unconscious level, we have willed it into being. It is happening beyond our understanding as a part of Human evolution. We created the destruction of humanity so we can evolve. WE have to come into balance. This is what Bali is representing for me somehow. A balance point between light and dark.
A crucial aspect of Enlightenment is the balancing of our brains, and on a larger scale the Earth’s, hemispheres. A pre-requisite for the Mass Enlightenment to happen at the completion of creation on October 28, 2011 is that such a balance is created. ( as quoted from Carl Johan Calleman)
Quetzalcoatl/dragon image seen on many temples here in Bali
The creation of such a balance is really what sets an end to our externalizing of inner conflicts and a return to living fully in the present. This is exactly the change that we may expect the energy of Quetzalcoatl to help bring about – if we co-create its manifestation in the physical realm. If Quetzalcoatl is a symbol of the energy of light and this energy is now falling on the Eastern Hemisphere, it can and will indeed serve to create a balance. within the inner realms of Humanity. I do feel this is why I am here, and why I have continually been seeing this image come up. This image has several meanings and it associated greatly with the sacred Kundalini power, in the individual as well as the Earth’s entire body.
Coatl is the sacred snake whose movements mirror the way that Kundalini energy moves up the spinal column awakening the wheels of light that surround each of the major body centers. When this serpentine energy reaches the crown chakra at the top of the head, we are one with the Universal. Quetzal is the sacred bird that connects Earthly power with the Heavenly realms of the universe. Together the Quetzal and the Coatl are the creatures that are closest to the earth and heaven as well as representing the sacred balance of female and male.
Goddess Saraswati sitting on a serpent
At the bottom of the Temple the look out to the deep blue sea
The deep blue sea of Bali. So very beautiful. I feel very happy and fortunate that I got to experience this lovely place and got to spend some time in the water. The blue lagoon and the next little bay over have the best snorkeling in Padang bay. It has been a learning experience and something I would prefer to do with a traveling companion for sure!
So early this morning after the morning rainfall I went out in this funky little boat with a local guy named Nyoman, which means number 3 child in the family.
He was not the original guy that commission me for a snorkeling trip yesterday and this morning, nor was it the boat he showed me we were to go out in. He did a switcheroo on me after getting me to agree to a price. I am telling ya all! This hustle thing here is as bad or worse then I have experienced in Mexico. Oh well, I just decided to go with the flow of what was being presented to me…..I went on the funky little boat adventure! It was fun~
He took around the bay to a fabulous snorkeling spot where I really was able to be in nature just me and the Sea, Mother Nature, the fishes- float and merge with Mother Sea in all her beauty. This was a totally ecstatic experience. To just float into this watery womb and let go completely. Water and fish all around me and the gentleness of the Mother Earth in her liquid form caressing me, surrounding me, bathing me in her deep blue sea of life. So lovely all of that.
Nyoman and his funky little boat
Colorful Laticed Butterfly fish in Bali
So I went on the adventure and snorkeled alone until another big noisy dive boat came along with load music blasting. Then I asked him to take me back. He was very respectful and very nice. Life is good, Fish are beautiful, Mother Nature at her finest! Ahhh…….wow, what beauty…I enjoyed it all.
One reason I am leaving early tomorrow because I just am not a great traveler on my own I have found that out. Oh well! I would have loved to have come with my partner and had a Lovely couples experience here. But I was on a spiritual mission and I had to live it out, and I have.
I like it on my own of course, there is something very enjoyable about doing my own thing, However I miss a traveling companion. I am too easily taken advantage of by myself and having a friend/partner to share all this would be so much fun!
So for next time I would enjoy this with a friend.
Maybe someone that knows how to manage the traveling scene better then I do on these crazy adventures. I will admit I am a wimp about the practical matters of The travelers life!
What can I say. This is just an observation I have made. Although I have to say I am proud of myself that I have done it and braved it out thus far in my own style!
They over charge me and take advantage of my naivety. Oh well…this has been my experience of Bali. After my boat and snorkeling experience I went to a nice little place to eat at the end of the way called Topi Inn. It would have been a good place for me to stay. More rustic and cheaper, but they are full up right now.
The food was great and Topi seems to cater to vegetarians. Totally my kinda place.
They have wi-fi, classes, accommodations, tours the whole 9 yards or meters as it were…..anyway, totally recommend them as a groovey place to hang! I ended up speaking to this older gentleman from New Zealand and the conversation turned to talking about 2012 and the end of the old system. He was kinda taken aback about what I had to say about it, but I was coming from my own inner truth and what the powers that be show me in my meditations.
I told him that the old ways are ending but a new Earth is replacing the old Dinosaur that we currently are living within. He was not all that familar with the concept and yet he was very interested in it, it seems because he invited me to come back and talk more later. So I will go back for dinner since I do have one more night here at this little getaway place. The food was excellent! I had a green coconut curry with fresh rice paper vege rolls. Yum!
After I ate I went up to the Lovely Temple of this land. What a wonderful spot it is! I had a meditation there and enjoyed the lovely energy of the place. Very special Temple~ Beautiful feeling, overlooking the sea.
Then came back to the pool at the hotel and enjoyed the afternoon swimming and reading my book. Just right way to enjoying my last day at the ocean retreat. Ah, I truly feel like I am on a vacation here afterall.
Temple at Pangang Bai
As we move into the last phases of the upgrade for the Human Soul we enter the ‘Womb-hole” as I call it. We are not skipping or running now, We Fly! Not the typical wormhole but the bright and beautiful birth canal for the New Humanity, the Luminous Being. A flying Species~ A entirely new engineering from which we have no conscious understanding.
Divine Mother Temple- 